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Dear readers,

I started this blog as a space to express my feelings at a time I was down and isolated. As I explored my passions through this blog I realized my interest in photography. After a while I wanted it to be more than a documentation of an ordinary human exploring an ordinary life. I wanted to document all the bird photos I have made, all the good shots, I became obsessed with quality and technicality of what I shared. This kind of attitude often left me frustrated. I also lost my voice and presence. Photos had become just photos with an identification of a species and few bits of information.

Truth is I do have a huge passion for photography. After finishing university with high grades in Psychology, I felt completely lost. I traveled for 9 months yet I did not share a lot of my journey here. I fell quiet and I fell into despair as I could not see where my passions and my life would meet. Moreover, after returning from my travel I worked at a coffee chain to pay off a small percentage of my student debt and to live. The routine did not leave me too much time for introspection and in a way I was grateful for that, for every time I was left to myself I would dig deep into the feeling of being lost.

I feel ready again to go back to the basics. To enjoy life and to share what moves me. To write and to feel. To simply do things without expectation for return. Without ambition. In two weeks I will quit the job and travel to see my family before starting at university to study social and political thought. I do not know if it’s the right path, but it is a path that does not offend my soul too much. It is better than taking no action at all.

This is an acknowledgement of my own struggles in the past two years and a promise that I will go back to finding beauty in life (meeting-soul).

“In spite of everything, I shall rise again; I will take up my pencil, which I have forsaken in my great discouragement, and I will go on with my drawing. – Vincent van Gogh

I will pick up my camera, I will sit with my thoughts. Thanks for being with me.

Love, Timali.

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Belted Kingfishers

An Osprey took off with a catfish. A belted kingfisher followed the Osprey halfway before turning back. I missed making a good photo with the Osprey and its catch but I was able to locate the kingfishers later:

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Here’s the failed attempt at capturing the Osprey:

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Tufted Gray Langurs

First the individual portraits: IMG_4871IMG_4851

In Sri Lanka if we want to insult someone for being ugly we say they look like the Gray Langur (Heli Wandura).

Secondly, the social side:

I personally love the last photo where the langur is holding the baby and looking thoughtful. There’s some humanness about it. Also, it was very protective of the baby.. he soon turned to the side, hiding the baby from my sight.

City of Waterfalls – Hamilton

This was my first waterfall experience in Hamilton and only the second in Canada (Niagara Falls was the first of course!).

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Smokey Hollow Falls

I could not get close to photographing the waterfall itself from the front, partly due to lack of determination and partly because I did not want to hold back others with my enthusiasm for a good photograph.

The best close up I could get:

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Smokey Hollow

Later when I went back near the top of the fall, I saw a ‘proper’ photographer with his tripod and all the right gear standing near the front of the fall and snapping away pictures of the fall. I wish for all the right things too.

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Grindstone Creek, Hamilton

As we walked the stretch of the Bruce Trail that goes along the Grindstone Creek, the green was very green, the air fresh and the flow of the creek was soothing to the spirit.

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Grindstone Creek, at Smokey Hollow Walk

If I could, I would go here every weekend!

I’ve been working five days a week at the coffee chain. I find my words and creativity drowning and on weekends if I allow them, they come back to the surface – still alive.